Expectations

Expectations : Root cause of misery.

Expect something from someone, he/she lets you down, you feel bad, you end up being sad.

When you start expecting from someone you give him/her the power to influence you, your feelings, your mind, your human nature and everything around you. For example -you expect a friend to call on your birthday but he doesn’t, you expect a friend to inform you first about something but he doesn’t at all, you expect to be someone’s closest friend but then you realize that you are not even counted in the “good friends”.

When you come to know about this it can totally piss you off and its okay, after all you had your reasons to expect from the other person. There must be some kind of relationship that you guys have. It all can be justified.

I’ve done my part. In the end nothing happened. I ended up infuriated. I just learnt from my own mistakes - don’t expect from others. It’ll get you nothing except pain, sorrow, anger, exasperation and aggravation.

Most of the people won’t even consider that you’ve done something for them. For them its just a trifle favor which can easily be repaid. Do something for others, help them but don’t expect anything in return.

Crossroads

Crossroads play a very important role in a person’s life, in determining what he is gonna do and what he is gonna be. Its funny to realize that your one decision can completely change what you are. Your whole life depends on your decisions. Not on the path you chose but on the path you abandon. What would have happened if you would have done the other thing? This is a question which we usually ask ourselves (at least I do) but the thing is that we’ll never come to know what would have happened. Life takes different turns in different circumstances. People say that things would have been better if you would have done the other thing but it doesn’t work like that. You can take your bloody head off but you won’t come to know what you’ve missed. Every decision comes with its own consequences - its experiences, punishments and rewards. It depends on you if you like it or not. Actually the rewards and punishments don’t matter. The only thing that stays with you is the experience. Thats what you can talk about, thats what you can pass on to other people, thats what matters.

If you clear your head and try to analyze it life gets really simple and decisions even simpler. Every crossroad has a simple answer and you know it without exception - you want it or you don’t, you wanna go or you wanna stay, you wanna live or you wanna die. In the two options one is right and the other is wrong. Most of us take the easy way out because the other one is too damn hard. I don’t think theres any harm in taking the easy way. The only difference is that if you take the harder path the reward is better and by reward i mean the experience of hardships. Its like Robert Frost says -

"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I

 I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference."

What exactly is the author trying to say here? He is just telling us that since he took the path which most of the people leave - that being the right or the hard one - he has something different and more exciting to tell us. Exploration, getting to know something new - thats what life is all about. Take the harder way and trust me you’ll be more satisfied than any other person in the whole World.

KMC Mangalore - Then & Now

After working my ass off I finally got selected in the university I really wanted to go to. Got the second campus in the counseling & was pretty confident that I'll be transferred in no time, but didn't know that fate has planned something else for me.

I came to Mangalore in August 2010 to begin my medical career. Initially I didn't talk to people much, went outside the room only to go to the class or to the mess. Even my room-mate wasn't there so had no one to talk to & I was fine with it as I was pretty sure that I'll get a transfer.
 
Time went by & nothing happened, no vacancy, no shift but I didn't give up my hope & waited till the very last moment. It didn't happen. So, I was kinda broken, helpless, shattered actually but couldn't do anything.

Classes went on & on for sometime. Then came the CR elections. Sadly, because of a friend I stood for it & got screwed :P. Don't wanna go in the details. Anyways, I decided on getting to know people here. I was taken aback when I came to know that my colleagues didn't even know that I was in their batch. Getting to know that people to whom I talk on a regular basis don't know my batch was freaky. They used to say "Are you in MBBS? I thought you were a BDS guy." Not their mistake as I used to hang out with the BDS guys quite a lot. This went on for a few days along with different questions "Did you join late?" & "Are you a day-scholar?" followed by me telling them that I've been here from the very first day & I stay in the hostel itself & then the laughing together.

I used to believe that people here were really nerdy and boring but after socializing for a while i realized that I was wrong. Though some of them are nerdy (my best friend is a nerd :P). But most of them are pretty cool and funny. Really talented and bright students.

Now, when I can say that I have some good friends here I've got some amazingly awesome moments to talk about - me screwing up my song, Indranil running "STRAIGHT" on the road, Krishna's Hindi accent, Gondi's "tak keta bis", Mishaal's "abhey saale & yo yo", Ramki's curses, Rutajeets's coffee (to keep him up at night), Malvika's hyperactivity, Anjali crying, Snigdha's terror among other kids, hours of continuous COD & specially the walks with Tofu, aalu & tamatar. :P

I'm glad this place has finally gotten into me & thanks to people here. I hope my next 4 and a 1/2 years would be amazing. Thank you guys - whose names are written above & some whom I've missed (sorry bout that) - for making it so awesome for me. That is it for now. I'll keep on updating my experiences in other posts that follow. :)

Emotions

The only thing that makes you weak as a person is ‘emotion’. This thing has the power to drive you crazy. One moment you laugh like a crazy kid and sometimes you cry like a crazy girl. People go mad because of this. They cry, scream, fight, ruin everything they’ve ever worked for just because of one petty thing. You must be thinking that i’m crazy to say that its a small thing, but seriously think about it. The whole city of Troy was razed because one fucking bastard fell in ‘love’ with a bitch who was already married to someone else. ‘Love’ is the scariest of all the emotions. Be it love for power, money, fame, honor or a woman. Trace back the whole of history and you won’t find a single war whose root cause is something different. Everyone says love is an amazing feeling but thats only the superficial thing that you see. The core is something totally different.
We all have come to this World to do something and trust me its not to love. Everything around you (as my friend says) is "BUSINESS". Everyone everywhere is just worried about himself. Most of the people won’t agree with me but later at some point of time in their lives will understand what i’m trying to state right now. You need to understand that nothing really matters. Nothing in this World should affect to you so much that you lose your frigging mind. Things go wrong when that happens. The World would be a much better place to live in if there are no feelings, no emotions, no happiness and no sorrow.