Victim Of Desire

I came out fresh from my mother’s womb

Someday would be somebody’s groom

Learnt ways of this world as each day passed

Was an innocent boy but now i’m sassed

I sit alone and stare in a void

Look for reasons why I’m annoyed

Don’t know what it is that I aspire

I’m telling you now I’m a victim of desire

You came in my life with a bright light

Everything got colored which was earlier black and white

You were the one who admired me for what I was

In my wandering life you gave a cause

The days I spent with you fascinate me still

Before that they had no thrill

Thought you were the only one whom I require

I didn’t know then I was a victim of desire

Its ‘WE’ no more, its ‘I’ alone

You were my butterfly but now you’ve flown

I walk alone when i feel depressed

It was you for whom I was obsessed

You had your reasons to do what you did

Finally found out what I hid

Deceit is what was my attire

What else could I do, I was a victim of desire

I thought I was fine, I was gonna make no mistakes

All I wanted to do is taste different cakes

It’s been a long time I haven’t faked

Looked straight but sometimes I liked getting baked

I’m headed towards what they call a ‘wreck’

What I now crave for is a peck

My life is like a worn out tyre

Be anything but not a victim of desire

SAGAR JAIPURIAR

Thy Heart Is Black

The day is grey and i feel so blue

I never thought it would be you

Silence sweeps and the day is gone

I came to know i was just a pawn

You had other bigger dreams

Which were far beyond my means

I was wondering what i lack

Then i saw thy heart is black

I saw you walking on the subway stairs

Getting all soaked up by the pouring that was on

I saw your smile and i knew i was slain

Was mesmerized and i felt lame

I dreamt of you day and night

There was not a streak of light

Then i saw a silver lining

I saw you again when the sun was shining

I thought then like you there are not many

But what to do i didn’t have clue any

I was sober and i wasn’t slack

But i didn’t know thy heart is black

You were running after the bus and i gave my hand

You grabbed it tightly and later thanked

We talked for a while before you had to get off

Something was working and i was feeling soft

I didn’t want to let you go

It was a feeling i couldn’t control

I waited for you there everyday

“she won’t come” my friends used to say

But you sure did come on a rainy day

How beautiful you looked i cannot say

I came to you and for a while we talked

“i really like her” was all i thought

I felt there was nothing that you could lack

Because then i didn’t know thy heart is black

We used to kiss in the mellow rain

When with you i felt no pain

Your voice was like a song by the choir

It turned out to be blazing fire

You wanted me to be there for you

When your time came where were you?

The game you played was an ugly one

My feelings for you, there are none

I felt lying was your only knack

Thats just not it, thy heart is black

Now its over and the days are gone

Its just you who has to mourn

Death, she crawls near

I ain’t got nothing to fear

Thats what life is all about

You are here and then you are out

You might want me to take you back

But babe the joke is on you,

As i now know thy heart is black

SAGAR JAIPURIAR