Sweet Life

I wonder what its like to feel no pain

To have no feelings

And to be sane.

Isn’t it better than what we go through?

The sufferings

The sorrows

And the days of resentment

Lost friends

Broken dreams

Why does it hurt so bad?

You bet its amazing when you’re happy

But what about when you’re not

When life just slows down 

And you hate every part of it

You wish you were dead

Lost

Away from everything

But it just doesn’t happen

I wish things were simpler

No worries

No feelings

No hope

No expectations

Wouldn’t it be easier to not care

To be what you want

And not give a fuck

I guess its all a sweet dream I have

Where everything is even and perfect

Its never gonna be the way I want

Because sadly I’m always out of luck.

Ray Of Sunshine

I’m sitting alone

In a cold dark room

Not surrounded by air

Its emptiness everywhere

Nothing is how i expected it to be

Messed up is what it seems

Its hard you know, to lead a life like this

I have no idea what all I’m gonna miss

Life was not always so miserable for me

The was a time when I used to be happy

Those days when you were there with me

My wish, my hope, my ray of sunshine

I know I haven’t been fair with you

There have been times when I’ve made you cry

Even though those days were hard to take

Theres nothing I won’t give to be with you again

Do you remember the days when we were together?

The promises, the kisses, the sweet love we made

How can you ignore them and move on with your life?

I guess this is all the game of fate

I’m gonna wait for you forever it seems

In loving memory of the days which are gone

I miss you a lot and I’ll always do

Because you’re my love, my life, my ray of sunshine

SAGAR JAIPURIAR

The Last Wish

Was sleeping one night

Had a weird dream

Horrified is what I was

With fear up to the brim

Fear creeped up

And I started to shiver

It got real cold

And everything seemed queer

The owl shrieked

And the clock struck three

Suddenly all went quiet

And I just wasn’t ‘ME’

My head started aching

And my eyes turned red

Felt something was moving

Under the bed

Gathered all the courage

And I walked to the window

Saw the moon but no clouds

Was mesmerized by its glow

Suddenly I see

A shadow walk by

Wanted to run right then

But my legs weren’t fine

Try to turn around

But my body was frozen

Suddenly a hard blow

And I’m dragged to a den

Its dark everywhere

Can’t see the moon anymore

Chills run up my spine

As I hear the closing of a door

Someone walks to me

And says in a hoarse voice

“Tell me your last wish

As you’re going to die”

I ask him why

What is it that I’ve done?

He tells me, he’s death

And my time has come

Its hard to decide

When it comes to the last wish

So many things went through my head

But all I wanted was the last kiss

I told him what I wanted

He gave me an astonished look

Granted me what I asked for

And picked up his book

“I’ll come back tomorrow”

Is what he said

I felt a pinch,

Then found myself on my bed

Thought it was all a dream

Till I saw scars on myself

I was stoned for a while

Started shivering again, I needed help

Picked myself up

And thought what to do

Could cry all day

And then turn blue

Its funny when you know

You’re gonna die that very day

Past flashes by

And you wonder in dismay

It was December suddenly

I was sitting with my love

Should have held her tighter

As she curled

Everything is so perfect

Why does have to end like this?

Its inevitable I know

And I can feel the drift

I ran to her place

Wondering if she’s there

Multiple thoughts going through my head

What if she’s out somewhere

Luckily she was home

She opened the door

My eyes got wet and I gave her a hug

I was an addict, she was my drug

She asked if everything was fine

And I lied on her face

She knew I was lying 

And gave me a cold gaze

I told her I missed her

And wanted to see her again

She held me close 

And it started to rain

We had a cup of coffee

Then I saw the Holy Dove

I kissed her mouth

And then we made love

We talked a lot

Then resentfully I kissed her goodbye

Wasn’t scared anymore

Even though I was going to die

He came back again

As he promised me

Closed his book

And asked if I was ready

It all came back again

The sweet moments together

I closed my eyes

And said I’ll miss her

My heart ached

And I wanted to scream

My eyes drooped down

As he sucked life out of me

I’ll love you always

You don’t know how much I care

If you ever need me

I’ll always be right there

SAGAR JAIPURIAR

Acknowledgment:

Purneetha Singh - For the title

Indranil Paul & Rutajeet Chatterjee - For the final editing. :)